Thursday, July 16, 2015

Sometimes, I am not all of those things.

"Because I love jokes, I will conclude with one that is very appropriate for today's celebration. A young college graduate is filling out a job application. When asked to list his strengths, he writes, ``I am a hard worker, I am mature, I pick up new things easily, I am self-motivated, I like working with others, I am a good listener, I accept criticism, ...'' and so on and so forth. When asked to list his weaknesses, he only writes, ``Well, sometimes I am not all of those things.'' During your undergraduate years at Brandeis, I hope you got to confront those limits to your abilities. I hope you got to find out that you were ``not all of those things.'' It's inevitable, it's part of being human. How you learn to deal with that inevitability will tell what kind of person you become. Thank you, and congratulations again to all of you. "

-Remarks at the Brandeis commencement, May 1996 School of Science ceremonies

Sunday, May 31, 2015

Virtues?

“The best people possess a feeling for beauty, the courage to take risks, the discipline to tell the truth, the capacity for sacrifice. Ironically, their virtues make them vulnerable; they are often wounded, sometimes destroyed.”
Ernest Hemingway

Saturday, April 25, 2015

Change

"Those who think that the mountains don’t change are wrong: they were born out of earthquakes, are eroded by wind and rain, and each day they are slightly different, even though we do not notice that change.
The mountains change and are pleased: ‘It’s good not to be the same all the time,’ they say to each other.
Those who think the trees don’t change are wrong.
They have to accept that they will be bare in winter and clothed in summer.
And they reach beyond the place where they were planted, because the birds and the wind scatter their seeds.
The trees are glad. ‘I thought I was just one tree and now I see that I am many,’ they say to their children springing up around them.
One question persists as we take our first steps along the path: ‘Will my decision to change make other people suffer?’
But if you love someone, then you want your beloved to be happy. You might feel frightened for him initially, but that feeling soon gives way to pride at seeing him doing what he wants to do and going where he always dreamed of going."
--Paulo Coelho.

Friday, April 24, 2015

Lines to live by.

न किसी से ईर्ष्या,
न किसी से होड़,
मेरी अपनी मंज़िल,
मेरी अपनी दौड़ ||

Monday, April 20, 2015

How I wrote my way into Stanford, Cornell, Purdue & UCLA.

Having been born and brought up in the intellectually stimulating environment of the Indian Institute of Technology (IIT) Roorkee, I have always been fascinated by technology and research. As an impressionable teenager, I used to frequently visit my father, Dr. R.N. Dubey (Assistant Professor in the Department of Earthquake Engineering at IIT Roorkee) at the Shake Table facility, where he was involved in the testing of conventional and earthquake resistant masonry building models as a part of a research project. A majority of the Indian population lives in low strength masonry houses. Seeing the conventional masonry building models collapse whereas the earthquake resistant building models holding their ground, when subjected to earthquake motion on the Shake Table, I became completely infatuated with the world of Earthquake Engineering and the possibility of saving thousands of lives through a robust design. I learnt that earthquakes don’t kill, buildings do. Owing to this predilection and after ranking in the top 3% in the All India Engineering Entrance Examination, I opted for Civil Engineering as my major at one of the most prestigious engineering institutes of the country, National Institute of Technology (NIT), Kurukshetra.

I was a meritorious student throughout my undergraduate years and owing to my impressive record, I was selected for a 6 week summer internship at Petrofac International Limited, Sharjah, United Arab Emirates. I worked on the design of a Pipe-rack structure and made a comparison of the interaction ratios obtained from the British and Indian Codes. I was also introduced to the different methods of seismic analysis of a structure i.e. Equivalent Static Method, Response Spectrum Method and Time History Analysis. Free vibration analysis of a trial structure was also carried out and the mode shapes and deflection patterns were observed for different modes of vibration. I adapted to the international working practices and gained valuable insights into how the companies operate. People passionately discussed the concepts of effective length and vibration mode shapes even during the lunch break. I absorbed all I could. I evolved. As I submitted my internship report, there was absolutely no doubt left in my mind that I wanted to pursue Structural Engineering as a career.

After returning to college, I decided to further explore my interests in Structural and particularly Earthquake Engineering by opting for a challenging Major Project, involving the Analysis and Design of a 14-Storey Building with Shear Walls. I compared values of parameters like base shear and nodal displacement using two different software i.e. SAP2000 and STAAD Pro v8i. During this project, I got deeply engrained into the concepts of Equivalent Static Analysis, Dynamic Analysis and the codal provisions for Earthquake Resistant Design. The teenaged infatuation with Earthquake Engineering had metamorphosed into a passion. The project was awarded the Best Major Project in the Civil Engineering Department for the graduating class of 2012. During the graduation ceremony, with my beaming family watching on, I received a Gold Medal from the Chief Minister of State, in the presence of the President of India. I learnt in that moment that if I stayed true to my dreams and followed them with a dogged determination, success would surely follow.

Throughout college, I also maintained an active interest in extra-curricular activities. I was Secretary of the Music and Dramatics Club and Convener of the National Level Cultural Festival of NIT Kurukshetra, Confluence. I led a team of 26 committee heads and reported directly to the Professor-In-Charge of the cultural festival. I honed my leadership and team-work abilities throughout this experience and learnt to deal with different stakeholders and meet their expectations. I was also an active student member of the Indian Concrete Institute (ICI) during the academic session 2011-2012 and participated in its activities throughout the year. I graduated from NIT Kurukshetra with a GPA of 8.84/10 and job offers from L&T- Ramboll Consulting Engineers and WSP Global. I joined WSP Global in July 2012.

As a Graduate Engineer at WSP Global, I applied the concepts learnt at college to solve real world engineering problems. I was exposed to the workings of Structural and Public Health Engineering departments and mastered commercial software packages like ETABS, SAP2000 and Hevacomp. I learnt to work under the pressure of a tight deadline. Being part of a reputed multinational design firm, having a diverse work force, I considerably improved my people skills. I also learned to effectively manage time and made it a point to be decisive and efficient in my workings. Owing to these learnings, I have always regarded my stint at WSP as an education and not just a job. I believe these skills will help me to excel in the Graduate School.

During my trips home while working at WSP, I would inevitably end up comparing my job profile with that of my father. I realized that as an academician, he was enjoying the best of both worlds-Industry and Education. He was travelling around the world presenting his research papers at conferences, guiding graduate students at IIT and at the same time acting as a peer reviewer for practicing design engineers. Having worked in the industry for almost 2 years, I knew that not many jobs in the world offered this diverse experience. I remembered Randy Pausch’s lines from his ‘Last Lecture’ in which, among other life lessons, he encourages students to join academics- “If you are such a great salesman, why don’t you sell something that is worth selling? Why don’t you sell education?” And so, with an eye on entering academics and with an inherent desire to expand my skills and learn more about structural and earthquake engineering, I resigned from my job in May 2014 to put my heart and soul into the graduate school admission process.

Stanford University has one of the most elite Structural Engineering Programs in USA and also has a very strong alumni base. The facilities and research at The John A. Blume Earthquake Engineering Center are ideal for me for furthering my interest in Earthquake Engineering. I am particularly excited about attending the courses of Structural Dynamics, Performance Based Earthquake Engineering and Earthquake Resistant Design & Construction. I believe an MS and possibly a PhD degree in Structural Engineering from Stanford will be a major step towards my goal of being at the forefront in academics while simultaneously maintaining strong ties with the industry.

With the confidence of having the appropriate background, interest and commitment to learn, I seek admission to MS in Civil and Environmental Engineering program with a specialization in Structural Engineering at Stanford University. If accepted, I would strive to continue for a doctorate degree and involve myself in research and development. I hope you find my credentials commensurate with the impeccable standards of Stanford.

Monday, March 23, 2015

Unhurried and Wise.

“When we are unhurried and wise, we perceive that only great and worthy things have any permanent and absolute existence, that petty fears and petty pleasures are but the shadow of the reality.” 
― Henry David Thoreau, Walden




Friday, October 31, 2014

Silence..



Accustomed to the veneer of noise, to the shibboleths of promotion, public relations, and market research, society is suspicious of those who value silence.

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Because I was all that I could be.

I have possessed that heart, that noble soul, in whose presence I seemed to be more than I really was, because I was all that I could be.

- Johann Wolfgang van Goethe

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

In the midst of winter..

"In the midst of hate, I found there was, within me, an invincible love.
In the midst of tears, I found there was, within me, an invincible smile.
In the midst of chaos, I found there was, within me, an invincible calm.
I realized, through it all, that…
In the midst of winter, I found there was, within me, an invincible summer.
And that makes me happy. For it says that no matter how hard the world pushes against me, within me, there’s something stronger – something better, pushing right back."

-Albert Camus

Friday, October 3, 2014

Book Review- Half Girlfriend by Chetan Bhagat



I think Chetan Bhagat gets way more stick than he deserves. The truth is, he writes and India reads. Most of his criticism stems from the purists or the "hard-core literature fans" who can't stand the fact that he is the most popular writer from India. Yes, his writing style is nothing compared to an Ayn Rand, a Rohinton Mistry or a Khaled Hosseini, but someone who is selling so much must be doing something right. And he is.  
Bhagat always takes up issues which resonate with the masses. In Half Girlfriend, the protagonist is a Bihari guy named Madhav who has a hard time speaking English. Now what can be more common than that? I can envision thousands of young guys in Bihar, who will never read "To Kill a Mocking Bird", but who will readily see themselves in Madhav and will have no difficulty in comprehending Bhagat's simplistic yet charming writing style. The beauty of this process is, some, if not many, will start seeing reading in a different light and will become become readers for life (Hopefully picking up books with more intellectual depth and profound life lessons). This, I feel, is Bhagat's biggest contribution. The repeated references to Madhav's poor English is annoying at times, but almost every book has a phase where the reader fights within himself to either put it down or soldier along. I chose to read on. And the book did hold my attention. Till the last page. And mind you, I am not a guy who reads "Only Chetan Bhagat Novels". I have read my fair share of classics and some have bored me to death. Half Girlfriend had me hooked. Its a charming love story. You will end up rooting for Madhav (Well, if you don't hold a blinkered opinion of Bhagat's work, that is).

There is the inevitable drama. Almost Bollywood like. But it is Chetan Bhagat we are talking about. Will you ever dare to criticise Khaled Hosseini for describing the beauty of Afghanistan? Will you lambast Dan Brown for going into minute details of Roman Architecture? Well, no. You will just say that its their own style. This slightly surreal drama is Bhagat's style. And its good. He has his own niche. It's a different story altogether that a new "generation" of young writers flourished in India after Five Point Someone, trying to imitate Bhagat's style and ended up hurting his already many times questioned reputation. Bhagat touches on the problem of rural education in India and the book also suggests ways to improve one's English. The techniques may seem too raw for the average Goodreads user or a regular reader, but in truth, they are effective. A 15 year boy reading this book in Bihar will understand this more than you and I will ever will.

Half Girlfriend is a very good read. Unputdownable. A sweet love story. An avid reader can easily finish it in two-three sessions. It will be lapped up by India's youth. It is a bestseller for sure. Chetan Bhagat's legend becomes stronger. I just hope that people digest the fact that he is a good writer who knows his strengths and sticks by them.

“Never forget what you are, for surely the world will not. Make it your strength. Then it can never be your weakness. Armour yourself in it, and it will never be used to hurt you.”

Kudos to Bhagat for going on despite all the criticism. You Sir, have all my respect.

(From a fan who has read enough books to not be classified as an "Only Chetan Bhagat books guy.")

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

4 years of college in 4 lines.



"Never a word I learned.
8.8 CG I earned. 
Faking pride for the stones we didn't break.
Exchanging campus placements for the paths we couldn't take."

-Quora.

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Love her for her vices.

"It's really very simple. If you tell a beautiful woman that she is beautiful, what have you given her? It's no more than a fact and has cost you nothing. But if you tell an ugly woman that she is beautiful, you offer her the great homage of corrupting the concept of beauty. 

To love a women for her virtues is meaningless. She's earned it, it's a payment, not a gift. But to love her for her vices is a great gift, unearned and undeserved.

To love her for her vices is to defile all virtue for her sake-and that is a real tribute of love, because you sacrifice your conscience, your reason, your integrity and your invaluable self esteem."

Ayn Rand, Atlas Shrugged (1957).

Saturday, April 5, 2014

Dear Catherine..



Dear Catherine,

I've been sitting here thinking about all the things I want to apologize to you for. All the pain we caused each other. Everything I put on you. Everything I needed you to be or needed you to say. Sorry about that. I'll always love you because we grew up together. And you helped me be who I am. I just wanted you to know, that there will be a piece of you in me always. And I am grateful for that. Whatever someone you become and wherever you are in the world, I am sending you my love. You are my friend till the end.

Love

Theodore.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Love always finds some reason.

"Odd things made him love her. The fact that she never put her books into a backpack or a bag, hugging them instead against her chest. That she always appeared somehow underdressed, still wearing a fringed suede jacket at a time of year when everyone else was bundled in wool and down. That the last two letters in her name were the first in his, a silly thing he never mentioned to her but caused him to believe  that they were bound together."

Unaccustomed Earth-Jhumpa Lahiri

Friday, August 2, 2013

One of the most profound quotes I've ever come across.

"Tere jaane ka asar kuch aisa hua mujh par,
 Tujhe dhoondte dhoondte, maine khud ko paa lia.."

Anonymous.

Monday, May 20, 2013

A Glowing Tribute..


Ankit,

I just wanted to thank you for your hard work and efforts for WSP CRC, especially since the start of the Base project. You have definitely been one of the most outstanding Engineers working on the project and you will be missed.

I’d like to take this opportunity to say good luck and good bye, please don’t forget us, and please get in touch if you would like to return to WSP India one day, or WSP Middle East for that matter.

You will always be welcome back during your university holidays if you want some paid work experience.

Unfortunately I will miss you this week, as I am not arriving in India until 26th, but I’m sure I will see you again.

Take care and good luck with your studies.

All the best.

Scott

Regards,
Scott Sigsworth
ME MEP CRC Coordinator
Principal Engineer - Mechanical
WSP Middle East

And the Reply:-


Scott,


I can’t thank you enough for your kind words. They really mean a lot to me and I will cherish them for times to come.

I must stress that the success of the Base project was also due to the incredible support from the Middle East, our team received throughout. You guys were a pleasure to work with. Nice, approachable, honest and straightforward.

It will be my pleasure if I work something out in the future to work with WSP and you people again. Forgetting this place and people is just out of the question J

Leaving the company was a very hard decision for me and I spent countless nights mulling over my decision. But I guess sometimes in life you need to act in accordance to the expectations your loved ones have for you. It just felt like the right thing to do.

To be honest, I’ll walk away happily knowing that people were very appreciative of my work here, and sometime in the future, WSP’s doors will be open for me. This is really a great feeling to go out with and I’m thankful to people like you who have made me feel this way. Thanks a lot for this. Really.

Till we meet again.


Thanks & Regards

Ankit Ramanand Dubey
Graduate Engineer - Public Health
Integrated CRC- Middle East
WSP Consultants India Ltd.

Friday, May 17, 2013

First Company. Last Email. Till We Meet Again.


Dear All,

They say that saying good bye and moving on is one of the hardest things you will ever do. As I sit down to compose this one final mail, I realise those words couldn’t be more true.

Today is my last working day with WSP. I joined here straight out of college in July last year. Although the transformation from campus to corporate was a little tough to absorb in the initial few weeks, I slowly came to terms with how the things are and how you ought to be.

I shall always remain indebted to the company for shepherding me through my first steps in the ‘Real’ world and for providing me with friends for life. It is for the same reasons that this place will forever hold a special place in my heart. I shall always consider my 11 months at WSP as an education, not a job.

A special thanks to my colleagues in the ME and my Managers, for being incredibly cooperative and supportive throughout. I hope that somewhere down the line, our paths cross and I get the chance to work with you again.

I will be relocating to my hometown, Roorkee, for the duration of my preparation for higher studies. My personal email id is: dubey.ankit3@gmail.com and I can also be reached on: +919458128516. Please stay in touch.

Till we meet again.

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Remembering Kurukshetra..

"the chaos has come to a standstill..and i do not like it much..this could've had a better ending or none at all(don't we all wish that. #sigh).but deep within, i know, this isn't it.there is more.a lot more.and we will be there..together..again, on the rooftop clinking the glasses,lost in the smoke.."

"you can get yourself out of college but not vice versa..."

"The problem with having an awesome time in college is that all your following life seems to pale in comparison.."

These are just some of the status updates (well to be honest, the most 'Liked' ones) that my friends and me put up on Facebook after graduating from NIT-Kkr. The 4 years of our lives, we can exchange any dream job for.

Today we step into the swankiest of offices located in the most posh areas, sip free coffee and drink beer after beer in bars. Probably living the lives we all wanted to, after entering our final year. In a way, it is a very naive attempt on our part to make up for one thing which we will never be able to relive. 4 years in that dusty old town of Haryana.

I often log in to my Facebook, after having lunch in office, to see the pictures we all got clicked, in the madness that was the last month of college. Its amazing to see the radiance in each of the faces. And why not! We were all about to graduate from one of the best engineering institutes of the country, with jobs in world renowned companies. We had the world at our feet. Or so we thought.

As I put in more and more hours each day at my job, trying to make sense of what good I am doing,I can't help but be thankful to the people who made those 4 years of my engineering, a dream lived. I'm glad that as I sip coffee with my colleagues, I have a story to tell about the 'next door' theka that thrived just because it had an NIT crowd to cater to, about the Aunty, whose door we used to knock at 4 in the night (after a walk from H-7) for a 'choti gold flake', about the compartment I got in the 8th semester (in a ONE CREDIT lab course), which nearly cost me the 2 jobs i landed on campus!

There are three sets of people I want to specifically mention and thank, apart from my seniors, for giving me a lifetime of memories.


  • My Gang :-D
          Put all of us in a graveyard together and we will make sure that even the corpses come alive. That's how we all were. And thankfully, still are. No use of listing each and every one, because they themselves know who they are. And I swear to the success of my current project (:P) that they are grinning from ear to ear as they read this. The countless bakar sessions live long in the memory. 7 months after graduation, and most of us talk to each other almost every other day. Although the days of 'bashing your behind with my chappal on your bday' are over, we manage to stay awake till 12 to wish each other. And any working professional will tell you this is an achievement in itself ;-)

  • My Classmates
          Section C-1, Civil of 2K8-12, is the most notorious group of bastards I've ever hung around with, till now. We bunked classes for weeks together, our Professors hated us for our attendance records, and famously, we were the FIRST section of the Civil batch to get fully placed! :P 
That we had no girls in this section helped a great deal towards organizing those Mass Bunks. The 'not even one girl' phenomena also helped dispel any sense of decency in our conversations.

  • My Juniors
         Apart from the customary thanks that this article is about (:P), a word of advice. The positions of Pressi, Secy and PACy stand nowhere in comparison to your CAT, GATE or GRE score. The priorities of Final Year students at NIT-Kkr is messed up. Think straight. My batchmates have realized it after nearly 7 months at thankless jobs, that just getting placed in your Final year counts for nothing. Apply for foreign internships, go to lengths to expand your skills, join a coaching class. Don't waste your final year in petty politics. You have got your whole corporate life ahead if that is what you want to do!!

And most importantly, create memories. Memories with your gang, memories with your classmates, memories with your girl. Yes, there are a few good ones in college too :-). Just look properly :-)

The quote couldn't be more congruous at this time, 

“One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure its worth watching.”


I embraced the pandemonium that was NIT-Kkr and I want you to do the same. Because one day or the other, you, like me, will figure out what's the best for you. Till then, have the time of your lives.

Cheers to NIT-Kkr. My home away from home. 9th April is the convocation date isn't it? I am counting the days.



Monday, March 14, 2011

The lesser favored children of destiny.

We all have read in abundance about the poetic success stories, about the 'phoenix' like rise from the ashes, about how a certain someone defied the odds to achieve a certain something, about how a guy pursued his 'loved one' for long, expressed his feelings and they lived all too happily ever after (its all poetic, remember!) and all the 'feel good' anecdotes that makes you go "aww" (girls) and "thats the shit" (guys) ;-). I'm talking about the tales with happy endings. Yours truly hasn't seen one(on a personal level) so far, so I guess that this piece of work should be endearing to the average human.

The lack of reading material on lets say "How I fucked it up" just amuses me sometimes. So here I am. The torchbearer for all those who just can't get it right, just cant get that girl to like you or for that matter worked your ass for your 'dream' company that came to visit on campus and you could not even clear the GD (:P). So they think only the winners can write. Screw them. The 'would be' winners can tell a tale or two!

The people who smile at the twists of the destiny which seem to be reserved in abundance only for them. The people who smile at the vagaries. The people who move on. The people who wait for the next chance. This is for you.

The greatest tragedy is not the rejection of love. Its being with a girl, whom you know, you cant 'be' with. Its when you hold her hand, and she does not hold it back. Its when you hug her and she does not hug you back. Its when you are lost in her eyes, and she just wont look into yours. And we the 9 out of 10 are too all too familiar with this right? And what do we do?
We smile at the twist of the destiny. At the vagaries .We move on. We Wait.

You worked your ass off for that that branch slide. For that 'dream' job. For that cherished position. And you missed it by a whisker. Why? Because the criteria went by .06. You are not 'best-fit' for that company and your fellow colleague licked ass better than you worked. And what do you do?
Smile at the twist of the destiny. At the vagaries. Move on. Wait.

So you will ask the inevitable question. What's so special about these kind of people? I'll tell you what's so special.

Getting something you want, at exactly the time you want it, may seem like the best thing to happen. Its NOT! The seeds of arrogance are laid then and there. Even more interesting is the fact that these people are less (or for that matter not at all) apt at handling failures than those those who have been on the symbolic 'roller coaster'.

The other good thing about the 'lesser favored children of destiny.' They know the value of a thing when they get it, more than the ones who got it at the first short or the ones who 'just got lucky'. Rest assured, their girl will be loved like she couldn't have dreamed about and their employers stand to benefit more from their unflinching devotion.

And the best part. Their humility. No matter how much they go on to achieve and irrespective of the ever increasing digits in their bank balance, they'll always smile when they pass you by. They'll always be first ones to extend their hand to greet you. Its the little things like these that makes a person special. These people are. They are rare too.

So to the ones who always seem to be 'nearly there'. Never curse your luck. Its all happening for the better.

Smile at the twists of destiny. At the vagaries. Move on. Wait.

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Invictus..

"Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul. "

-William Ernest Henley