"i know this is long overdue.I never really had the courage to write this one down...
look, 'm really sorry.I realized it soon enough that wht i did 2 u was entirely wrong, i was at fault.
If i was in your place, i wud never forgive myself but please , i cant dare ask us to be friends again but do consider my apology.I cant erase all the hurt 'v caused u but i'm really really sorry. i mean it from the bottom of my heart.all the pain u went thru was my fault, my ego, my cruelty..'m rly sry.hope u will forgive me.
PS. i'm trying hard 2 change n i have changed to a gr8 extent.plz give me a chance
"
Yours truely just received this apology. An apology he once could have killed for. It was a from a "friend" who abandoned him(it gets down to this, even if i try to be at my euphemistic best) 4 years ago citing obscure reasons. After all these years of picking up the pieces and moving on, continually trying to break free from the emotional cobwebs, he finally gets to read those words-"I'm sorry. It was all my fault."
How will he respond? Will he offer a chance or has the time and the pang of separation sucked out the very belief of friendship from his soul?
Read on..
"My heart skipped a beat seeing ur name in the unread mails and if I'd foreseen what I was about to read, I'd have definitely believed that pigs do fly and cows climb trees..
To say that I was hurt by what you did, would be a gross understatement. Your departure left a void, which required ages to fill and your values were at a level i never believed someone wud stoop to. Still, i moved on.
Part of what I am today, is due to ur snobbish behaviour. It changed me the most as a person. I've stopped expecting things frm ppl. However close. The metamorphosis was inevitable, my friend...
I want to believe that every word u wrote in that message of urs is true. I want to believe that u r truely sorry. I want to believe that u r changing.
Something tells me u r.
And why do i use "want". Why is every fibre of my being dripped in trepidation and not relief at seeing an old pal come back??
'Coz u've used big words before my friend and have failed to live upto them. I've been left stranded before, staring into oblivion, flabbergasted by ur irrationality, which bordered on the nefarious..
I saw ur facebook friend request as an attempt to break the ice, and i accepted it out of sheer courtsey. I'd never say"go, fuck off" to every person I don't like. Its just not me . And most of the them out there(i think u know it), wud have gladly said that, if u wud have done to them what u did to me.
Apologising the way u did requires courage, and if a person really means it, humility..I think i saw traces of both. And its only due to these, that feelings of sympathy, however vestigial, arise within me. Maybe, in a way, u were suffering through all of this too..
I've moved on. i accept ur apology. i appreciate ur humbleness in accepting ur errors. and if all of what u said is true, then i could have hoped for no better in this world.
accepting ur apology by sincerely hoping that all of what u said is true..
Yours truely
PS:Everyone deserves a second chance.. "
There is some good in this world afterall..
