No, no..I'm not a Scarlett Johannson(did i spell it right??) fan, who was floored by her acting in the film. Its just a way that I have been feeling, ever since I shifted base from 1-GHA-5 Vigyan Nagar, Kota to D-13 Hill View Apartments, IIT R. Yes, somewhere lost b/w that oily food of caliber mess and the delicacies prepared by my mum...somewhere lost b/w the cold and ungrateful corridors of these majestic apartments and the ruckus the 4 of us (Pranjul, Prateek, Nitin and yours truely) would create in the middle of the night and beyond. I don't think that I miss kota that much, coz we never did such things there, that would linger in the memory for long. Like Suvir uncle had aptly said, it was akin to a train journey. U catch it, coz u want to reach a destination, make friends on the way, and get down..no sentimental attachments. That's how Kota was like. Never provided moments, that would make me jump with joy, no moments of pure ecstacy. Instead, it hit me where it hurt the most. Logic, concepts, anti-mugging groups..never thought one would study like that....
In hinsight though, I would have gone nowhere, had i stayed back at Roorkee. Especially, with my style of study, and no one to correct it, kick me on the hindside(not literally, but still....) and tell me where i stood. Kota, and Bansal Classes, did that. That's why I'll forever be indebted to that place, no matter in which college i end up studying in.
It was not a journey of self-discovery, instead it was a journey which conveyed how I should be, in order to get what i want to. To sum it up though, Kota was like a friend who would never provide me with unnecessary happiness(stood 1st in the class son..lets party!!), infact mellowed me down. Made my swagger bite the dust. For good reasons people. For my betterment..
And now, as i sit down in the evening, to type this, nothing seems to be the way it was 2 years back. The "friends"(most of them), who made filmy promises are all gone. There's a unusual sense of calmness that pervades now, and mix it up with the biting cold, and u get a combination, which has made my mind dizzy, but fully aware of what i need to achieve, to make the sacrifice worthwile...
Lost in transition? Certainly. But thanks to the "train journey", I am hopeful, of ending up somewhere.....
